I feel so lonely. I’m in a relationship.. How could I possibly feel this lonely. I feel so pathetic, stressing over someone who ain’t even worried about me. The more & more I think about it, no one is truly there for me. In order for me to be happy, I have to make myself happy. But how do I make myself happy when you were my happiness. I don’t know what “happy” is anymore. When I’m with you, I’m not happy. But if I’m not with, I’m even more miserable to the point where it’s sickening & impacting my health.. why did I let things get to this point. I don’t really know how to change things. But I don’t think I want to anymore. I think I’m done trying. I don’t want to be.. But I have to be. I’m done chasing after you. I’m done being the only one who cares & puts effort in. I’m done being the hurt one. I’m done with you.
I would never be a good valentine anyway.